npew kitew susa wat plihan....???

alooo...ak mmg btol lme da nk bincang sal npe kitew susa sgt nk wt plihan niyh....mmg owg ckap susa nk plih jew yg baek....tp bukn sng.....klu kte juz dkawal oleh otak waras,,ak wase sng jew nk wat plihan...tp msalah nyew,,bilew kitew dkawal oleh nafsu dlm wat plihan,,tu yg akn wat kitew tunggang trbalik...hahaha.....nk taw knape..??meh ak story k....

klu stu ari kitew dberi plihan plih antara 2 benda....
1-bnda yg ley bg ktew mse dpan yg cerah
2-bnda yg ley bg kitew enjoy skg

mne kowg akn plih...??ak pcaye r mostly akn plih no 2 tol x....sepew xmo enjoy tol x...??hahaha....knpem2 kitew akn plih no 2 sbb kbnykn plihan n kputusan yg kitew wat brlndaskn nfsu smate2....nfsu tuk enjoy,,tuk idop bebas n mcam2 ag lorw....tu laaa sbb rmai yg sesat da skg....sesat mksod ak,,bilew smpai stu mse diew akn sesal sumor idop diew....besew laaa...nme pown jiwa remaja...spew xmo enjoy kn....

tp..........bg owg yg pk mse dpan diew,,knpem2 diew plih no 1 kn...mmg kdg kitew rse susa sgt nk wt plihan niy,,tp pcaye laaa,,da smpai mse kitew kne pk ape yg trbaek tuk kitew d mse dpan....idop mmg wajib enjoy tp jgn laa mlmpau sgt....bg ak,,sume plihan x perlu mse yg lme nk wat...2ari pown da trlalu lme.....tp lg lmbat kitew wt plihan n plih pe yg trbaek,,mkin jaoh plihan trbaek tu dri kitew n akn mkin brmsalah idop kitew....n pling trok plihan trbaek tu akn lari dri kitew sndri....tol x...??

kowg sume pham kn...niy laa yg brlaku kt ak skg...ak xtaw ak nk plih yg mne....diew ataw diew...mmg yg sowg niy ckap diew stil ley tggu ak.....tp ak x prnah pk smpai bilew diew ley tggu....mmg kdg2 ak taw pe yg ak de skg ley wat idop ak pnoh pncaroba....tp ak niy trlmpau ikot nfsu...ak xtaw pe yg trbaek tuk ak......mmg dri luar ak tgok sowg niy ley twus tggu n dpat twus sabar....tp ak x prnah singkap pe yg diew rse skg....mmg ak ckap ak pham,,tp ak taw xde owg yg ley pham pe yg diew rse.....diew sbar even kwn2 n fmly diew da taw....ak xtaw klu ak bukak ati diew,,bpew bnyak air mate yg akn kuar.....ak taw diew ley wat ak epi,,diew ley wat ak bhagie,,diew ley wat ak sng.....tp ak xtaw knape susa tuk ak btol2 jdkn diew plihan ak.....n niy sume sbb ak wat plihan ats dsar nfsu ak nk enjoy,,nk market n mcm2 ag.....tp ak taw,,yg sowg niy akn pergi x lme lg klu ak ttap wat diew gniy......tp stiap plihan kitew,,tggung jawab kitew....tp diew de ckap....nk wt plihan pk dua bnda jew......
a)mse dpan kitew
b)fmily kitew

klu kitew ikot dua bnda niy,,knpom kitew taw wat da besh tuk kitew....juz ingt niy jew....
-mse xley diundur
-pe da brlalu xley dbtolkn
-skali trsilap,,sumor idop sesal

ak susa sgt nk lpaskn sowg sbb ak x prnah rse btol2 dtgglkn....sbb diew(azfar) owez jew dgn ak...ak x prnah rse btol2 idop tnpa diew....n ak xtaw pe akn jd klu diew ilang dri idop ak....skg myb ak ttp ngn plihan yg lme,,tp ak ykin,,bilew diew(azfar) prgi,,ak akn mnyesal...ak xtaw ak rela o x diew prgi....ak trlmpau lmah nk wat choice...ak tkot nk tgglkn yg lme...ak xtaw npew....even ak taw prob bnyk tp ntah laaa....ak lemah....ak trlmpau tkot.....ak ptot buang prasaan tkot tu n tgglkn yg lme.....ak prlu wat....myb ak sdey skg,,tp kurg2 d mse dpan im da happiest person in tis world wit mr. az....i reely hope so....huhuhu

ak harap sgt ak dpat wt kputusan scepat mgkin.....ak taw 2 ari da trlalu lme....tp diew bg ak genap 8bulan 28 february niy n ak taw diew xkn tggu lme lg....lme sgt diew bg ak pluang....mmg diew da btol2 trseksa....so skg ak nk gune pluang yg diew bg niy sbaek nyew.....bulan 3 niy myb buln blog niy jd mlik ak sowang(aimi) ataw jd mlik kitowg dua(azfaraimi).....sbb ak taw diew akn prgi....mgkin prgi jaoh dri ak.....n mgkin akn tgglkn ak twus tnpa kabar brita....hope ak dpat wt kputusan skg ikot pe yg trbaek.....doakn ak......